Saturday, August 11, 2012

"Massacre"- A Poem


And I don’t want to hear them talk about it
Anymore
They ruined Daisy
They took her pastel yellow dress and pearls
Flung them across the room and interrogated her
In the corner of her own house on a
Wednesday afternoon
Her blonde hair astray, wisps framing her golden eyes
A look of confusion on her face, crossed with tears
Settled in the crevices of her eyelids
Now they’re moving on to Gatsby
Tearing his tie to shreds
And destroying his gilded pocket watch
By smashing it with their hands, their voices
Which sound like the ear-piercing squeals of hundreds of
Strange houseguests outside on the freshly cut lawn
They lock him in his closet with his now soiled trousers
They’ve drenched with wine,
Not even the expensive kind
I sit in my chair quietly and I want to defend them,
Take their hands and help them up from the
Massacre that is these teenager’s assumptions
But the teacher, she’s already seen my face,
And realizes the damage is done.

Friday, August 10, 2012

Musings


maybe i'll just keep it all to myself 
and fill journals for the rest of my life
I remember when he said, he looked over and I was
furiously writing, he said 
"I couldn't understand"
I said 
"You could've too. 
Anyone could've."

…..

"sorry, sorry, sorry"
"don't apologize so often, why do you do that?"
"because don't you see? there's just so much to be sorry for."

Tuesday, July 24, 2012

"Buddhists"- A Poem


My stomach twists
Like a bendy straw in the 
Grasp of a little child
It churns when I think of how
Awful
I must be 
Maybe if I went to someone
Spoke my thoughts out loud
Maybe if I went for a seven day walk
Like a Buddhist would
Maybe if I became Buddhist
It would be easier
Because Buddhists can't kill things
It's against their faith
The thing is
I don't have any.

Tuesday, July 17, 2012

Moments

“Those moments before a poem comes, when the heightened awareness comes over you, and you realize a poem is buried there somewhere, you prepare yourself. I run around, you know, kind of skipping around the house, marvelous elation. It’s as though I could fly.”
-Anne Sexton

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

"Helplessness Blues" by Fleet Foxes



I was raised up believing I was somehow unique
Like a snowflake distinct among snowflakes, unique in each way you can see
And now after some thinking, I'd say I'd rather be
A functioning cog in some great machinery serving something beyond me
But I don't, I don't know what that will be
I'll get back to you someday soon you will see

What's my name, what's my station, oh, just tell me what I should do
I don't need to be kind to the armies of night that would do such injustice to you
Or bow down and be grateful and say "sure, take all that you see"
To the men who move only in dimly-lit halls and determine my future for me

And I don't, I don't know who to believe
I'll get back to you someday soon you will see

If I know only one thing, it's that everything that I see
Of the world outside is so inconceivable often I barely can speak
Yeah I'm tongue-tied and dizzy and I can't keep it to myself
What good is it to sing helplessness blues, why should I wait for anyone else?

And I know, I know you will keep me on the shelf
I'll come back to you someday soon myself

If I had an orchard, I'd work till I'm raw
If I had an orchard, I'd work till I'm sore
And you would wait tables and soon run the store

Gold hair in the sunlight, my light in the dawn
If I had an orchard, I'd work till I'm sore
If I had an orchard, I'd work till I'm sore
Someday I'll be like the man on the screen

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